still here in the waiting

10.10.2026.

i'm not alone.

i have my family. i have my relatives. i have my friends. i have me.

but sometimes, it can feel lonely.

i miss having a hand to hold.

i miss talking about sweet nothings. 

i miss having inside jokes. 

i miss sharing food. 

i miss listening to someone's stories.

i miss being someone's "go-to" person, to share something with.

i miss thinking about a special moment over and over again, smiling to myself until i fall asleep.

i miss giggling and gushing over the little things.

i miss looking forward to dates, to anniversaries and even birthdays. 

i don't have a particular person in mind. not at all.

but i wish i have someone i can call "my person". 

i wish i would be comfortable.

i wish he won't hurt me whether intentionally or unintentionally.

i wish he would hate to see me cry... i hope he won't make me cry.

i hope he would treat me well. and i hope i would too.

i hope we get to spend a lot of time together and be supportive of one another.

i hope we get to try a lot of things.

i hope we get to achieve a lot of our dreams.

i hope he listens to me. 

i hope he notices me.

i hope he would understand me even with just a glance. 

i hope he would take care of me and my heart.

i hope he would respect me and my family.

i hope he would love me genuinely. 

i hope he pays attention, no matter how big or small... i hope he cares. 

i hope he holds my hand when i'm happy, when i'm sad, when i'm scared, or when i just need someone.  

i hope he supports whatever i put out to the world. i hope he never ruins my confidence and the way i see myself.

i hope he will love me for me.

i wish i would be happy around him.

and i wish i could meet him very soon.

i think i'm ready to meet you.

i know that i will love you wholeheartedly. 

my arm is stretched out, i don't even know if there's someone looking for me.

well... i hope you are.

come find me. i'm right here.

i'm still here in the waiting.

stamped and posted.

love,

me.