bigger feelings, quicker to hide
09.22.2026. I've been trying to detach lately, but this is because of work and how it has consumed a lot of my feelings, my thoughts and even my time-off. But then, I realized that I've also been feeling a little all over the place. I’ve got a list of things that are making me worry and things that I want to avoid thinking... and at the same time, I think I've gotten better with how I mask my feelings. I've gotten better at putting bandaids all over things that I won't spill anything. I've been thinking about my sibling and how much I want to reach out, how much I want to keep telling her that I'm always here for her, how much I want to help lessen her load, and how much I want to be there... without scaring her away. All my life, I know that I'm more of the anxiously attached person. But I didn't know she's the opposite of me... who needs to be distant, to understand their feelings and be okay. I have been keeping someone's secret. Of cours...